LOS ANGELES

if you must know, i'll be outta town, i'm going Los Angeles for 10 days, so i'm gonna spend 8 days there, 2 days the flight journey to Singapore from L.A and back.  Plane departs at 7:20AM, and i'm checking in early.. Bah, i've no idea when i'm gonna leave. so anyway i'm going L.A to study for a while, yeah i know it sounds pretty ridiculous but it's just a briefing on some things i'm gonna do, how i'm gonna do, what am i do to with it when i'm 18 next February. now honestly i'm not ready for this trip, my luggage isn't packed, i have lotsa things undone and i can't leave SG omg.... everything's happening so fast.

k.i.l.l.m.e.

Singapore > Tokyo > Los Angeles 

6 hours over to Japan, 9 hours over to US..

its about a 15 hour flight minus the breaks in between... 

i honestly think my attire isn't right for the weather... O_O

time check: 4:25AM, 

i gotta go now. see you over on the other side of the planet!

dear you, i love you and i promise i'll shower you with gifts when i'm back, that is, if you do care.

good bye and take care everyone, you too, prick.

you know what sucks?
endless misery, sleepless nights.
head full of stones, heart torn into pieces.
knowing no one can ever be there for you.
trying your best to fight this painful feeling.
hoping some day some one will come rescue you.

mentally exhausted.

1.

2.

EHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE 

3. 

1. so i'm pretty sure every girl has their moments, this was taken a few days ago, my attempt to self-take photos on one of the sundresses i had in the making.. is clearly a fail. oh well, i'll just use this as some preview thing. do you like the leopard prints?
2. pictures from last week, Gracelyn. she got me a maxi and this giant hand made card for my birthday! lol, i love, and i missed you indeed.. :')
3. return addresses. 

another note.

XI : XI isn't pronounced as seeh-seeh or ex one-ex one

it's just 11 : 11 in roman numerals. 

Disappear

you always do.

SHAKUHACHI

why make the most amazing, most minimal, most versatile piece at

TWO HUNDRED AND TWENTY-ONE FUCKING DOLLARS?!??!!??!!?

i need a breather.

*gasps*

The Wonders - That Thing You Do

You,

Doing that thing you do,
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do
And you,
Don't mean to be cruel,
You never even knew about the heartache,
I've been going through
Well I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I,
Know all the games you play,
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
You'll be mine someday
Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
Cause I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl,
But I know one thing's for sure,
It's the love I haven't got girl,
And I just can't take it anymore

Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go,
Around with someone new ,
And if I know you you're doing that thing,
Every day just doing that thing,
I can't take you doing that thing you do




i think this song best depicts what i'm going through now, every word of this song, lyric speaks EXACTLY how i feel, or my current situation. all except for that one sentence i stroke out.

so anyway i'm sure some of you have already heard this song, it's been around since 1995/1996, i... reckon.

in case you haven't i shared the video!
hehe please give it a listen, its definitely worth that 3:19 seconds of your life.

Make-Up

hey, i know how hard things are right now and that you're lost. but i want you to know that you're not alone alright.

i too, know how it feels like to put in your all, getting nothing in return and being left unappreciated for the things you do. but what can we do, as much as we want them to treasure, this whole thing, we can't because we don't share the same prospects, or maybe they just don't know what they have.

but still, if its meant to be, it will be. for now, just let loose and let nature take its course. i'm sure all's gonna be fine. ;)

if you hadn't notice.

i launched my web store last week and i really hate how light my make up looks in photos.

so i decided to give the eye liner + red lip stick a try

before:

after:

well if you must know, i have very minimal make up on before, and i'm not a big fan of eye liners but i really hate how my make up looks so light in photos when it isn't in person!
gah....  look at all this make up...

i'm starting to feel so shitty about myself.